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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 12:12

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was very sick at this time too.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I waited trembling.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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My life is so biszare .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She was in good health!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I just cannot wake up early, even if I sleep on time. What should I do?

We were not on the streets..

He knew the spot.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And i lived it daily.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I don,t even have a pension.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She wouldn,t have been !

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It was going to be , some day.

My family never makes their pension either.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im still living with it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She loved him until the end.

Would this be the day?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Put me off passion for life!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She married twice! .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She found it foreign!.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was seconnd youngest,

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Comes on , in middle age.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So whats the point in blame.

But ive been too sick for many years..

When she asked me how she looked .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But it wasn’t much.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

What did i know ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I write beautiful poetry .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was 9 years of age.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Who then, do I blame.?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But, we were locked up after school.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I was scared of men, in general

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Ive learnt so much.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I have no regrets .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We all went to grammer schools

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

So, i spoilt her more .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

This is soul school!.

I said to her

One cannot live in the past .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I will be 64.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

All the time i was locked up.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)